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MY
STORY
by La Baby Tears
I
read the poems on your site by Baby Doll and I wanted to contribute
my story. My story differs from hers because my story is about
my search for my perfect vato and the day I finally met him.
I was hoping you would put my story on your site so everyone
that visits your site and thinks there is no such thing as
true love will know that good things come to those who wait.
I recently met the man of my dreams but it's a weird story
actually because of how everything happened.
Well,
my story starts out in Las Vegas, Nevada where I recently
lived and I was going through a lot of things with my Madre.
I was the craziest chola in Las Vegas and I didn't care what
I did or who I hurt as long as I showed my homies that I was
down for my varrio. I ended up getting in a fight with my
Madre and beating her so badly I hospitalized her. Since I
was on probation at the time the court ordered me change or
face a really long prison term. I am thankful that the judge
gave me another chance to change my ways and so they sent
me here to Pomona, Califas to live with my padre.
When
I got here I was up to my old ways again until one day when
I got bored and decided to get on the Internet. I signed on
and went to a chat room called "HISPANIC CUTIES" and that
is where the rest of my story takes place. I was in the room
asking if there were any firme sureno pelons there and one
vato sent me a message. He asked me a lot of questions about
why I was in a gang and what my gang did for me.
When
I started to really think about the things he was saying to
me I realized that there was really nothing in this life for
me but hurting other people and eventually turning the ones
I loved against me. I got into a really deep conversation
with him about everything from my past until now. Back in
the day I used to be a really smart girl, straight A's, never
missed a day of school, and everything else good girls do
but then I was in a situation where my best friend had betrayed
me and it seemed like my family was against me to so I resulted
to gangs. I got jumped in and after that I didn't care about
anything and I wasn't afraid to kill someone or even if someone
killed me.
I
dropped out of school ran away from home and at the time I
was only in the sixth grade. I lived on the streets until
I turned 16 then that's when everything with my Madre happened.
As I was explaining to this vato in the chat room about everything
I have experienced he told me probably the wisest thing anybody
has ever told me. He said, "Life isn't hard, You are the one
who makes it hard for yourself by the way you live your life;
everything in life has rules and in order to survive you have
to follow those rules whether you like it or not. If you choose
what's in your heart and follow it you can never go wrong
so why make your life harder than it has to be?"
After
that I decided to change my evil ways, I have gone back to
school and I am now in the process of catching up as well
as trying to clear my record and since no one here in Pomona
really knows about my past I thought it would be a perfect
way to begin a new life. So as I have been proceeding in my
new life realized I owed a lot to this vato who helped me
change my ways. I then started spending more time on America
On Line trying to get a hold of him and when I did I found
out that we had a lot of the same things in common and have
experienced a lot of things that are the same as well.
It's
hard to believe that he could know what I was going through
since he is only 18 but he knew and he has been helping me
get my life back together. I soon realized that every time
I wasn't on the computer talking to him or on the phone with
him all I wanted to do was hear his voice. I questioned him
about it and he said that he felt the same way. A while after
I got to know him better I started letting him know about
my personal life like my past relationships and The last relationship
I was in before I met him was a living nightmare.
His
name was Puppet and he was an abusive, possessive control
freak. The last time I saw puppet we got into a fight and
he grabbed a hammer and began to beat me with it. He broke
two of my ribs and cracked my head open then dragged me around
his house making me hit every wall until he was done laughing
then he kicked me out of his house.
When
I told this vato about Puppet he wanted to kill him but then
he told me about his ex-girlfriend who had put a gun to his
head and if it wasn't for his homeboy he would be dead right
now and after that this vato I had been talking to, Manuel,
and I became so close. He told me a lot about his past and
how he was a bad ass cholo but he changed and he explained
to me about how he did it. Now we are still together and still
helping each other through the obstacles of everyday life
but the funny part about all this is that we still have never
ever seen each other in person -- we have only talked on the
phone and the computer because he lives in Richmond California
and I live in Pomona and lately we both have not had access
to any cars but we are happy this way because we love each
other for what's on the inside not on the out and that to
me is true love.
So
you see if everybody waits and be patient the thing they ask
for will come to them as long as they help themselves to achieve
it.
Sincerely,
La Baby Tears
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