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When I was 12 I and mi home girl Maribel were always together we did the same things and we acted the same. At that time she was going out wit this vato named Jorge and he presented me to his friend Armando. We started out as friends for about 1 week and then we started going out. The 4 of us went everywhere. I was so blind that I couldn't see that he just wanted to sleep wit me. On Halloween we all went to the cemetery and I had stayed in the car cause I didn't want to get off and Mari had gotten off cause Jorge got off and when she was going up looking for him Armando tried kissing her and she slapped him then he came down all fuckin mad and he didn't tell me why. The following day Mari had told me that Armando tried kissing her and that why he was all mad pero I didn't believe her and that's that we've been friends for like 4 yrs. In November we were talking and Mari had asked me what I was going to give Armando for his b-day and I told her that I didn't know and she told me to ask him what he would like so I did. I called him like right after I finished talking wit cause we talk up to 5 hrs on the phone. So I called and I asked him what would u like for ur b-day and he said I'd like to have u for me u know and I was like what are u trying to tell me and then he said I want u to be mine and only mine and I was thinking bout it for like 5 min and then I told him that I would. The following week was his b-day and we did it and at 1st I thought que estaba embarazada pero as time went I didn't feel that well at all. When I had thought to my self that I was I should him or talk to him about it so I did and when I told him he was like scared or something. Then as I tried talkin to him about it he started acting all cold wit me and I didn't know why. Mari was the same way wit Jorge pero he had gotten all happy when she told him that and I wished that were Armando pero it wasn't. I found out that he started sleeping wit other girls pero there's girls were white bitches that had diseases. But I was still stupid I stayed wit him because I loved him. Then I had gotten my period and I knew I wasn't embarazada pero I was faking I was and that was a stupid thing I did and I regret it too. Then in January I slept wit Armando like 2 or 3 times and mi jefa found out that I slept wit him and she called the cops on him. Armando was 20 and was also a mojado cause he had fake papers so she pressed charges on him and he was going to ask mi jefa for my hand for marriage pero I told him to leave cause mi jefa pressed charges on him and he did he left without saying goodbye to me and that really hurt because I really did love him when he left I found out that I really was embarazada pero I had lost the kid and as time passed by I was depressed sad and didn't want to go out for shit. So all I could do was call one of my homeboyz his name is Pelon and he was always there for me he listened to what I had to say and gave me consejos about what I should do. Then as the months went by I slept wit 2 other guys also. Then I met Efrain at this 1 house cause we were there for practice for this quince anos party and it was is niece who was having it I met him and I liked him and he liked me well on the day of the party at night when there was like 1hr left of the party we were dancing and he told me how much he loves me and he had asked me if I wanted to go out wit him and I didn't say anything pero after the party we went to a hotel and I ended up sleeping wit him ya I guess u can say that I was really easy. Well we were going out for like 1 month because I went to my tias wedding anniversary and he came to the party around 11 cause that was the time he got out of work and we were there dancing until the party finished and we went outside we were hugging, holding hands, and kissing in front of everyone and mi jefas boyfriend Juan seen us and he got mad (cause he wants to go out wit me) and he went to mi jefa wit the chisme and mi jefa gave me a good beating and she went out looking for him and she didn't find him. The following day she went to his house wit the cops and they told him that he'd better stay away from me and he had already fallen in love wit me and I loved him to pero not as much as I had loved Armando. After that Efrain didn't want to know nada about me pero I told him pues if we cant go out then we can be friends y he said ok so like were just friends now pero we don't even talk to each other we just keep staring at each other when we see each other pero that's about it. Well like I was 13 when I slept wit the 2 other guys and Efrain and like I invited 1 of mi ex novios to mi canton and we had sex and then mi jefa came into mi cuarto and this vato was hiding in the closet and mi jefa went in there and seen him and she called the cops on him tambien he is only 19 and in jail for rape when he didn't rape me I don't know why they charged him for that. At that time I was hanging wit his primas Maria y Rita and when they found out they didn't even want to talk to me and they still don't. His family is still trying to get mi jefa to drop charges porque his jefa is in Mexico dieing and she's worried cause he doesn't call her at all and that's all because of me and I regret doing that a lot. Finally I met this guy on Yahoo chat is name is Rudy pero on the computer its Clown Boy well he's 17 and has a kid we talk every single day and I'm feeling something for him that I didn't feel wit Armando or Efrain and he feels the same way cause its like I can tell him anything and everything and its the same thing wit him and all I do is think bout Rudy and I think I'm falling in love wit him and ya he's asked me out plenty of times but I don't tell him ya cause I don't want to make the same mistakes that I did with Armando and Efrain and the other 2 guys cause those 2 were just a one night thing well mi Vida is pretty fucked up porque mi jefa doesn't believe me for shit and cant trust me tampoco y like I told mi little carnal que I was a surena and it is true and he told mi jefa and she's like don't fuckin listen to her cause she fuckin full of shit and she's even called me a peruja, bitch, slut, skank, hoe, hoer and those fuckin names I have even thought about leaving the fuckin house pero if I leave where am I going to go, stay, and do?? Pero the good thing about this is that a met a great guy who is Rudy and ya he's hella cute also I just hope he'll under stand everything I've been through. Babymija_x3 Send a Story ~ Home ~ Main ~ Poem Menu |
