MY FIRST TIME

MY FIRST TIME WITH YOU,
WAS A DREAM COME TRUE.
WAITING FOR THIS DAY FOR SO LONG,
I WAS SO YOUNG BUT I KNEW THAT WHAT I WAS DOING WAS WRONG.
I COULDN'T CONTAIN MYSELF,
I REMEMBER HOW YOU GOT A CONDOM FROM YOUR SHELF.
I WAS ANTICIPATING THIS DAY FOR QUITE SOME TIME,
I KNOW SOME PEOPLE SAY LOVING YOU IS A CRIME.
A CRIME I'M WILLING TO COMMIT, IF IT'S A CRIME LOVING YOU,
THEN I WILL RISK PAYING ANY PRICE
BECAUSE I CAN PROVE MY LOVE FOR YOU IS TRUE.
THAT NIGHT YOU LOOKED DEEP INTO MY EYES,
I DIDN'T KNOW THEN THAT THOSE SPARKLING BLACK EYES
WERE FILLED WITH DECEIVING LIES.
I LET YOU GET THE BEST OF ME,
I WAS SO STUPID TO REALIZE AND SEE.
I WOULD HAVE NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD EVER DO THIS SHIT TO ME,
I REALLY COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT THIS COULD REALLY BE.
WHEN I SAW HIM WITH ANOTHER BITCH, I FELT LIKE KILLING THEM AND DUMPING THEIR BODIES IN A DITCH.
I WAS SO FURIOUS I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO,
HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SUCH A FOOL.
IN THE BEGINNING EVERYTHING WAS THE WAY I WANTED IT TO BE,
EVERY TIME I WOULD SEE HIM I WOULD GO WEAK IN THE KNEES.
WHY IS IT THAT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO DIDN'T SEE THE REAL HIM,
WHEN I WOULD THINK OF HIM MY MIND WOULD JUST START TO SPIN.
AS TIME PASSED BY, ALL I COULD DO IS CRY.
I CRIED FOR THE LOVE I LOST,
NOW I'M PAYING FOR THE COST.
THE COST I WAS WILLING TO PAY,
IS ONE OF THE THINGS I REGRET I HAD TO SAY.
HOPING THAT HE WOULD CHANGE,
IS SOMETHING THAT WOULD BE VERY STRANGE.
I KNEW FROM THE BEGINNING WHAT I WAS GETTING INTO
BUT ONCE I GOT TO KNOW HIM I CHOSE NOT TO SEE THAT SIDE,
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT HE WOULD HAVE LIED.
MY FRIENDS TELL ME A GUY LIKE THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE FOR THE BETTER, UNTIL ON DAY I RECEIVED A LETTER.
HE WANTS TO GET BACK WITH ME I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO,
I DON'T HAVE THE SLIGHTEST CLUE.
I TURNED HIM DOWN, BUT WITH A FROWN.
I DIDN'T WANT TO GO BACK,
BECAUSE I KNOW IF I STAY WITH HIM THAT HE'LL JUST GO BACK IN THAT SAME TRACK.
AND NOW MY ONLY SIN,
IS THAT I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM.

P.S THIS IS DEDICATED TO THAT MOTHAFUCKER WHO BROKE MY HEART.
BUT DON'T WORRY YOU'LL GET WHAT'S COMING.
PAYBACKS A MOTHAFUCKER.
4RM UR EX-JAINA HAZEL

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